kawaiiyina

2009-10-09T06:56:00.000-07:00

sunshine is starting to shine on my side
my world started to become brighter n brigther
thanks for blowing off the dark clouds which r trap within me

2009-10-05T08:01:00.000-07:00

everything getting more n more complicated then before
i started to head towards a world of unknown
wishing tat i have never been born
a dimension of thousands ,millions , efinity of hurts
trying not to thing anymore of anything
i wanted to be in my own world
with no one controling me at all
a world for my own
with emotionless
no love no happyness no anger no sadness
it will stayed in my heart
my appearance is just a fake statue
so wat alot of people wanted to woo me so wat?
i cant even be with the person i wanted to be woth
because of scare ?my heart my feelings
is already dead
with nothing left
it is just the time tat is going around me
i hated myself more then i hated anyone
so dun ever ask me do i hate u for wat u did

2009-09-27T23:22:00.000-07:00

I love you so much
that words cant even explain
this joy that i have for u
when i am at the weakest point of my life
u are there encouraging me to run this race
cause u are there with me
im not afraid of losing the race
but afraid of losing u
u are on my mind day and night
when we are apart i picture u lovly smile and gentle hug
i can let my feelings out to u and wont regret it
because no matter what
is u are always on my side
i thank GOD for sending me someone like u
who is precious and loving
sorry if i had hurt u TT
u wanted to be gone soon ?right?im sad so wat else i can do to change yr mind?
when i look at your eyes
i see your true self
i see the sweetness
and caring of u
i see u are giving and forgiving
i see yr love for me
when I look at your eyes
i stop myself from crying
when im alone and think about your eyes I cry
i cant stop thinking that one day
ill never see those eyes again
that ill never see the love
or the sweetness
or the love that makes u who you are
one day u will be gone - gone from me
no matter what happens
those eyes will one day close
and forever rest in peace
but u will never be completely gone
because every time I close my eyes
THERE U WERE BE!~

2009-09-21T08:28:00.000-07:00

time is going past so fast
n level starting again i dun think i done well for it
i think i going to ite soon
butt i reali hope to go sec 5
go POLY
things getting harder too
boi .. not tat i dun love u it is the fact tat it is v hard
but i always kw tat my feeling for u is always there
u r handsome
>< u r tat kind of guys tat r above average
i kw i will be v sad on losing u maybe even will i cry for u every night
from my daily expression
people may tot tat i im happy im cheerful
actually im not i just wanted to be brave
i cry myself to sleep every night
just because of u
i just wana the person tat i love deeply to be happy
but dragging u with me doesnt seems to make anyone happy at all
he may not treat me good but i dun think he can lose me either
i dun kw wat will he do
it has been 2years plus with him
he treated me v good i kw tat
but he spent too much money on me
i dun kw when will i leave him
eirther did i kw when will he leave
me or did he still love me alot like last time
i dun wan to make him sad
...bloi i just wan a happy memory of u n me
n hope tat our friendship can last
i hope to be close with u
but you have choose the right choice
on leaving me but i kw u cant 4get me so does i
i kw u miss me alot ..even when u heaven even tell me at all
actually i wana see u tonight but i dun think i have the chance at all
tml will be the day when u ended all this things
leaving me n continue with yr happy life
STAY HAPPY NO MATTER WAT PUT A SMILE WHEREVER U GO
I LOVE U I MISS U I REALI DO
the happy memory tat we been though from the start to the end is always in my heart
never to be 4get
...the day u added me on fs
the day u wanted to meet me
the day tat u hug me
the day tat u break
the day tat u tell me u wanted to give me the feelings of my bf
the day u bought me things
the day tat u say u love me
the day tat u wanted me missing me alot
the day tat we tok=almost everyday =cant be count
the kisses tat u give the love tat u implant in me
the joy tat we have ... will always stay with me
DUN 4GET ME <3 ALWAYS

2009-08-05T03:55:00.000-07:00

haix everyday
seems to passing so fast
nlevel at corner tip le
prelim started ...
it has been 17 days
from the chalet n 5 days from east coast
i wonder when would be the next day i saw u again
every night listening songs
let me remember the time with u
when u hold my hand , hug me
every thing seems to be in my heart
cant 4get at all
... but boi ...
im happy for u finding a stead that u love
but i still hoping one day u would tell me
y u told yr frenx all this things
n y would u hold my hand, promise me things
tat cant be coming true
... STAY HAPPY ALWAYS OKAY?

2009-08-02T08:27:00.000-07:00

still remember yr promise?
bring me to seaside?
hoping to you soon...
ytd sat
went to east coast with bf
go arcade saw a guy
hair style like yrs
in my mind i tot tat
wahhh finally saw a guy with the same hair style
my eye vision v blur
wanted to see closer but bf dun let
saw tat guy playing maximum tune
with one group of friends n two gals
i think the gal behind is his dream gal
"STEAD"
after tat me n my stead when off i msg him
u at east coast ah?
GUESS WAT
yes y ?
i said i saw u
then he ask where u
like wanted to see me but i rejected
i was so happy to see him but sad to say
i saw his stead
so i ask him u with yr stead ah?
he did not reply
but the rest of the question i ask him he replied
wat does he means?
... I MISSES U BOI...
STILL REMEMBER HELPING U BRUSH TEETH
SAW YR SCARY PART..CO......
STAY HAPPY BOI ...

2009-07-31T00:14:00.000-07:00

Boi im i realiv stupid

missing you every single day

knowing you wont want to see me

sad to hear you saying

this to pressure me when u dun even have a single one

"i with my gal"

people tell me u r serious abt me

n u dun have a stead

but y are u bluffing to yrself n me

wat make u thinking of this

...MISSES U BADLY...

BOI STAY HAPPY NO MATTER WAT

2009-07-28T06:23:00.000-07:00

it's have been 8days ago sincei last meet u
...friday night went out with ah bu they all
after tat weiloong they all went in to school
to see the ...wooooo....thing
left me ,ahbu and junhan
we cycle to chalet to find alex...
when we reach there
alex never li wo
after tat i when to tok to him
tat night me n my bf quarrel
then alex an wei wo
then after tat jun han and ah bu when off
alex n me tok till 3+
after tat went in tok crap with sky they all
by then i v sleepy le
i lay on the floor take a short nap at 3+3.3
i woke up
they alex sit beside me letting me leen against him
so sweet
tat night after off lights
me sky alex n botak
slp below at first floor
i suddenly become high po
start distubing them
then alex started with "woshi guo fu chen ....."
"say yo...sean kingston"
his voice so alike with them
making me n sky laught like hell
"chestnut haze nut..."
'then suddenly o lua"
tat night he hold on to my hand slp so sweet
abt morning 6 he went up to slp call me
go up but he dun kw i stomach pain
i at below only can hear him shout n making poeple laught
i damn sad lol...
but after tat i manage to go up
... the next day morning he say me to go up to air con room when all go out eat le accept for
sky ..bathing i bought my ds up
he started put his hand then i dun kw i lie down
then after tat i play the medi game
then got my name i say i wan safe myself....lol
alex started singing beside
his voice so nice
then i off my ds slip into my blacket wanted to slp while he singing then
suddenly he go in the blanket too
my face n his face so near
then i shy i turnaway...
after tat when for birthday party
before i go his frenx ask me play game with them but will make clothes
dirty so i dun wan ... they tell me at night come back i say okay lol
alex never say bye to me as he went to other chalet
i cycle home
then tat night i came back
alex v angry as my first word is "you wan ba dan tell me come off phone"
when i walking down the stairs he shouted
"promise his frenx come back then i come back"sound v jeo.."james"
then i waiting below for him
he come out usually i will lent him lighter
tat night
he use coal light never even see me
even when i wan pass him the lighter
i v sad
then they started the party
his frenx james put the army cream on my face
so hard to earse
i went to toliet
alex go n see but act blur never saw me
buti kw he looking for me...
SRY TO MAKE U ANGRY
after tat he still bu li wo i v sad
i run off to outside walk walk n smoke
then he msg me to go back ... i when back after cry
he ask me where i go ...
then he come anwei wo
i ask him u angry ah?
he say no..."u promise james anything ?i said no"y
he say nothing then i continue ask u angry ah he say...y leh u sad ah?..LOL
but i reali v sad
after tat he n his frenx jio me go watch
HARRY POTTER
on the say go he hold my hand... so wen ruan
when we watching he hug me n fall a sleep
he damn cute
then got one part
damn scary ,he holding on to my hand n sleeping ma then i suddenly sqeese his hand
he woke up so cute ..."wat happen"
srysry i scare...i told him
then he started to scare me through out the show
actually from the start he already scare me le
when i scare i will hug towards him...
then after the show we when back slp
SUNDAY morning he v tired ,actually wan go swimming with me back
i bu ren xin wake him up he sleeping v cute
then after tat he woke up go bath le
we when to eat
at the bus inter tat take got many people he pull my hand towards him
...after tat we went mac eat he feed me eat
he keep ji siao james
then after i bite him then his frenx say long time see him tio pon also happy
say we two v lovely
he like to feed me with cig le ask hot ma..v sweet
his a v kind guy....
his frenx say he serious abt me
....but after sunday
he never msg me le
but i still wondering y u say tat u r serious of my so loud to every one
but in the end u already have a gal u like ...
i once scold him hong ster he scold me bitch say he change le dun remind him of last time
he already tried to change..
after tat we started to fall apart
... he told me he got a dream gal...
8days later... he told me he stead with the gal le...
boi im happy for u
u found a gal tat u reali like...
i love u
but is better to see u with a gal u reali like
i miss u
hope to see you
memory of u ALEX

2009-01-08T20:40:00.000-08:00

y0!!!! sistterr!! xD last long!!! ^^v

2008-10-06T07:27:00.000-07:00

tml feild camp le
take care of yrself okay?
i will wait for u de<3
this friday must give u a big surpriz that u wanted<3
btw my ah gong come back home le^^
so happy his fine
<3luv>
i miss u alot even its just a few days
maybe this prove to myself i love u deep in my heart
then anyone esle can=)
muackxxxxx
xiaotitu in luv with datitu
tweet^tweet<3bob^bob
will marry n have a good family have many money n stay happy 4ever
>.<

2008-10-05T06:36:00.000-07:00

long time no post le
back to posting period
so happy my playing of car drift impove le^^
starting to drive faster le
i hope tat my drving can win u
hahaa wait for u to come out of army this sat i surely dei u =x
hehe... haha acc u no need scare cos yr skill so pro
every one also cant dei u
unless u bang chance to me=)
take care...
omg 4got to ask u got bring yr insect tisfide
later kana comando bite
i will xin tong de
i understand army give u alot of stress
i still always fan u so much
u v v v v de stress
i will try u make u happy when u come out from amry on weekend
muackxxxxxxxx.....take care laogong

2008-09-23T06:19:00.000-07:00

thanks dar
u seems to be so kind every time every moment
when i lost my wallet u did not scold me at all
u find with me ,comfort me
sayang wo>.<
still because of me run back to buy the 2shirt which i lost
i reali v gan dong when u did all this to me
... still pei me go do elink card run here n there cos 4gotten to take things like the ic things
u still bought me 2 new wallets 2 shirt
a $5 heart folded by u
a kiss a big hug from u
... this reali let me have the feelings of last time when we r so lovely
u changes a lot so does i after this accident
we promise to change for each other
we did it dar
my love for u have gone deeper n deeper since the day we stead
u r the first guy i love the most
the first guy who make me the most happyest gal in the world
the first guy who kiss me with a feeling of reali love
the first guy who say he going to marry me n bought me to his house
the first guy that i let my parents see n love him alot=x
take care dar i will be waiting for u
n yr promies u say u will marry me one hor=)
muackkkxx take care of yrself in army muackxxxx

2008-09-17T05:16:00.000-07:00

sad things happen
acc its a nice n happy day for me
but i lost a wallet n 2 clothes
elink money god keys all gone
ah bu n baby photo all goneTT
my things all goneTT
need redo everything need50plus do
good day now i can can fasting le =)
can lost fats...
thanks for accopant me when am sad n stress
cant live with out u
=i wasted money just for nothing=

2008-09-16T02:47:00.000-07:00

hello..toliet bowl=)

luv ya ... lantern luv toliet bowl ...
nice name for u =)
muack muack
enjoy yr one week holiday okay?

hope tat we can

sweet hearttttt...<3
stay happy 4ever like last time we did

...take care ..

2008-09-04T10:54:00.000-07:00

today early in the morning wake up recieve lots of msg^^
but no one celebrating with me so i slp till 3plus in the afternoon
then suddenly door bell rang...
guess wat?
ah bu n baby at door step
so happy norhx
still bought me a cake^^
so nice....♥u all
haha then we when tampiness
for swensen ...with jk leonard weiloong lijuan n doreen^^
they bought me a ice cream cake^^
n free ice cream=x
then they make the left over cake n ice cream with pepper n salt lol
eeeeerrrr..so errx xin haha
acc wanted 15 candles de then onli get 6 TT hahaa...
after tat when neo print
they say take tgtg then in the end oneli ah bu n baby take with me TT
hahaa.... so happy first year best friends celebrate my birthday for me^^
thanks guys i love u guys ♥
of cos i love u too dar
too bad u never celebrate with us hahaaa
take care guysss... muackxxxxx

2008-09-03T07:28:00.000-07:00

its okay gals?
birthday is not a v imporant things
u all still can celebrate with me next year
cos i wont die so easy haha...
dun think too much le take care okay?
<3>

2008-09-02T08:26:00.000-07:00

...mama going give doggy away le....
TT she say we cannot take care of it no time
i gonna miss u baby ....
hope tat my mum will find a good owner who loves dog
or may be hope tat my bf can take care of it...
i love u baby...

2008-08-25T03:41:00.001-07:00

on the way yo army

my teeth whiter hor=p

love u dar miss u too...

2008-08-25T03:27:00.000-07:00

on23th,sat
we when for lunch near his house
he decided take me a short ride to the lunch place on his bicycle
this is the first time i reali enjoy my self v much on the bicycle
(a v suay n happy thing happen)
when we reach there it started raining heavy
after eating it still continue to rain
then we decided cycle homee though the rain
(so glad tat he still dare to cycle me "i so fat">.<)
then he done a v romentic thing
he bought me to his house near by play ground
hide so cold lol...
then we hide underneath got sand so dirty
me put his shoes for me sit so kind hor?
haha...luv ya
then he huggy me from behind so happy lol
then after tat we play in rain awhile then go home le...
the lunch so exp lol (western foor 20$++)o.0

on 24th sunday
my papa birthday he so cool lol
haha we bought a cake for him
my parents like ,like him v much so care abt him
n army
hahaa ... my parents send him go army
.... this week cannot tok to him or see him must wait till next week
cos he got feild camp on
still in forest 1 week
xin ku ni le ..take care hor..~
muackxxx love u dar

2008-08-20T06:55:00.001-07:00

i kw tat u scold me shout at me is care abt me

but whenever u scold me i felt v sad n useless

we qurel most of the days

i reali hope tat i wont make u angry

any more

we have left onli a short time

toking .... and see each other

i reali reali v hope tat u can enjoy when u r with me

happy everday

i kw yr army is stress and hard

i understand

but sometimes i reali hope tat u can understand my feels too

am a person a little bit of words or express

i will v happy le

... i kw u care for me alot so does i

miss u v much too

thinking of u hopeing tat u wont injure again

looking forward to see u

... i felt v sad upon seeing u injure so badly ..

on yr leg

get well soon okay?

take care hubby tweettweet here will always be by yr side

supporting u stay with u

muackxxxx.....<3>

ai si ni le
hush hush....<3

2008-08-16T08:10:00.000-07:00

today... quite happy plus sad
lijuan(baby)doreen(ahbu)jookeng(jk)leonard(kor)weiloong(kor)
yong hui(dar)eugene(frenx)
when to sentosa play volleyball
early in the morning prepare for pinic
reach sentosa at 3plus
play volley
first sadest thing happen
finger nail broke both finger injure
so sad hor haha
but happy to be with u all playing
i found out a v err xin de thing
inside the sea
deep inside got the rock then on top of the rock got sticking n poking things
so discusting lolxx
we enjoy playing monkey
... haha...
ho0pe u all enjoy yrself too...<3
zhuzhu ai ni muackxxx

2008-08-14T23:04:00.000-07:00

tml going sentosa^^
skipping sjb exam
due to not learning=p
plus sjb start so late TT
haha...
hope tml all my plan will all sucess...
ah bu and baby going with me <3
tml dar going drive car
7people squeeze 1car=x
haha ... luv u all
hope that we can enjoy ourself tml
muackxxx

2008-08-11T08:01:00.000-07:00

...today...
a start of new week
no sch because of ndp
...early in the morning ah bu(doreen) baby (lijuan)
came my house make up from 11 to 2 plus
so long time haha plus lunch(bread fast)
then we when safra meet pink guy the one lijusn meeting
ask us to come along
meet him at billi room
then the stupid uncle keep say u all below
16 cannot come police
at near by coming
then we dun care continue playing
then after that the uncl keep saying
then we so bu liao le
then we when safra bowlig there play
lol they all so funny
then we went to kallang leisure park
the shopping so wu lu lol
still mnst sit bus go
then we sit bus 11 from kallang...
we all tot tat there wont be a bus call 11 cos
11 means walking(shock)
then the show so scary
am the onli one keep shouting=x
so psTT
then we when back to kallang
then so scary sia suddenly
two guys in front me ask me for number
so shock lol
then my ah bu say i got bf le
then the guy say can make frenx=.=
so irritatting
then i gave him my bf number=x
haha imagi if my bf ans=x
so lolxxx...haixxx
okay then after tat we when home
lol then so scary after watching the show
go home alone
baby so good but thanks i can manage myself home
=) love u guys
so happy enjoying with u all today
<3muackxxx...

2008-08-10T07:18:00.000-07:00

i kw tat i did something wrong
by walking home with out telling u
.. u think i wanted to?
is u walk aways from me 3 times
i wanted to talk to u but u went where?
plus i have told me bro to tel u tat i go home first
cos am tired n u seems to be looking at me as a transparent person
i went home tat night myself feeling tired sick sad afraid of dark
looking behind weather u following
...
now we seems to be worst then frenx...
delet me from friendster...maybe msn
i dun even know
wat i did tat make u so angry
even my apologrize
also cannot help
even tking to me is so hard
to u ?
...
if u reali think tat we even frenx also cannot be
wish n hope not to see me again
u can take me as invisible
.. an ash of coal
i though tat we r a closest frenx
we share our happyness n go though our sadness tgt
i gueat am wrong
i think it is so easy to be a close frenx with a boi
sry for all the things tat i did
that make u emotionless...
take care boi....
tears dry up soon as the sky turn dark

2008-08-04T05:55:00.000-07:00

so happy my house come a new pet
...guest wat it is?
its a cute 3 month old ah pai doggy
so cute its name is baby...
v cute but when it shitx or pee
u going to be mad
...haha...
but i will train him
he will be a v clever and intellegent doggy=)
hope tat i can give this cute little baby a nice and warm home
(... baby i love u never ever let u go ....)
national day coming this sat
friday he coming out
but i dun think he could be early
due to late for army 2 time
siao liao....
but i reali miss him a lot
take care boi...
muackxx love u ....
of cos every one take care .... kor,di,jie,mei=)
<3>
enjoy yrself (:

STUPID ENGLISH TEACHER

2008-07-08T01:24:00.000-07:00

he damn sucks lol
say everyday one person must find one word
from dic and teach the class
... then i ask him this question is it reali any word from dic can write
he ignore me ... then my frenx say write lol
then the bastard took out his hp n take my pic
"like i v pretty"=x kdding=)
then say i got evidence u better behave
the whole class weakness lol....
he is the sucker of the sucker
that suck the sucker suck
nice ?=p
hahaa....
you suck teacher=)

2008-04-28T07:02:00.000-07:00

omg...
today is a v scary day
a "guy" who is so called cute and funny become mad
he go buy so many bomb bag
the bomb bag like press or hit got nothing happen
but when u hit it v hard it started to become bigger
so scary
he keep trying to scary me TT
....
then he pass me one i try
so scary lol i press le keep smeaming then got nothing happen
try like 10+time
throw le run then nothing happen so sad
then he keep using tat to scary me run here run there TT
so scary ....
then got one time i finally press the right way but it never
explode ....i was like omg it still to blow but
no explode....
he pick up and ways like running after me wif the blow bomb bag
i run like mad lol
so scary.....
go home sweating hahaa....
i must be brave lol so dan xiao
the whole blk people like going slp then suddenly
got screaming here n there hahaaa....
i so bad..... good nitex to all i also got to slp le....buixxx

2008-04-26T05:07:00.000-07:00

today i saw a v stupid guy...
u kw wat he doing?.....???
he was like playing wif a paper n a lighter....
when the paper burning he like .....
SO HAPPY OR SOMETING....
omg ... i was like "blurBLUR"
then more funny de
when the paper burn he put inside....the
"bubble tea cup"
then got so much smoke
like he smoking??...
if u see from far ....
but u see from close he is just burning some thing=.=
then still not so funny one
he go use a straw suck the paper
like glue sniffing...
then he like coughing=.=...
so er xin ...hahaa....
....then today i wasted so much money on the ufo catcher
catch nothing lol....
waste time n money
reali hope tat this year i will get good result so my parents
will let me work...
then i will get extra pocket money ...plus free to thailand
mid year coming le
every one must study hard...wish u all good luck
XD
tata~take care ...

2008-04-24T05:38:00.000-07:00

today is sure a suay day sia our class kana caught gambering we even so pro to invite the princlple n vice princlple to class cool right =.=
they say so many stupid things .... then we all still standing leg like numb le lol
they tok like their own busyness from 9 to 9.45 =.=
waste of time
THEY DUN KW I DOING D AND T ......
then after tat still tell us to say sorry
.....we was like sry my ass .....
the most worst thing the people who was punish was the one who admit
got one person bao tou ... n never admit i will hate her 4ever
even i still act to be good to her
she eventurly a person who everyone hated v much
to her "i will always remember wat u done "
.....but after sch i go out wif my kor we go play so call a small catching game
he so cute as in the machine there is onli left one soft toy in the corner
which cannot be catch ... he go shake the whole thing
is like after 2 dollor we get it
so cute n kind of him
i reali felt v happy when he caught it for me ...
thanks kor ...zhuzhu u kw wat i mean^^
.....ending..... oioioioi oinkoinkoink